Fears

Sitting back here on this comfortable bamboo chair in my balcony sipping my tea with a cigarette in my hand and seeing some smoke not sure if its from the cig or tea or the smoke of fear. I just stood there as relaxed as possible but only physically but not mentally at all. This thought came into my mind “am I really getting old?” I’m not afraid of getting old cause years passing are just numbers I’m counting but deep inside I’m so alive, energetic, loving life and going out and learning and experimenting and reading, etc…. I love Life. 

However I was just thinking that now I’m sitting here all alone enjoying the lovely weather but alone. Where are my children? Where is my husband? Where are my friends? Well, the answer is that I spent all my life just for them. Now my children are not kids anymore. Each of them has his life now. My son got into college and living with his Grand parents cause they are closer to his University. My daughter is always with her friends, not strange at all as she reminds me of myself when I was her age. As for my husband, he comes back home from work late enough to have dinner and just sleep or watch TV for an hour and then sleep. No social life. I can’t reach my friends cause Im too far away from them and they dont want to hang out here in tagamo3 and I can go to them but my timing doesnt suit them unfortunately. So I was fearing that this will be my days till the end, just sitting here alone forever.

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القطر

جوزي راح اسكندرية اسبوع تبع البنك وفكرت اروح اقضي معاه يوم وارجع في نفس اليوم علشان الولاد هسيبهم. المهم ظبطت لمريم انها تبات عند صاحبتها ليلة الخميس علي اساس اني اسافر الجمعة الصبح وارجع بليل ان شاء الله. وفعلا حجزت مع كريم انهم يعدوا عليا الصبح الساعة 7 علشان الحق قطر اسكندرية بتاع الساعة 8وربع المكيف. اصل انا كنت سامعة ان محطة مصر اتجددت وبقة فيها مول وحركات وقلت يلا اهي دي مغامرة في حد ذاتها اني اركب القطر وخصوصا ان بقال سنين ماركبتوش يمكن من 25 سنة عالاقل احم احم يعني مش عايزة اكبر نفسي ولكن دي الحقيقة. صحيت الجمعة الصبح وجهزت وجالي كريم ورحت المحطة 7ونص والحمد الله كان لسة في وقت اني احجز وسألت عن مكان حجز التذاكر لغاية لما وصلت الشباك ووقفت ورا ست واستنيت دوري بعدها لكن لقيت واحد سبق انه يدفع مع انه جاي بعدي، طبعا ماعجبنيش الوضع وقلت له في طابور علي فكرة وانا جاية قبلك لكن للاسف الموظفة خدت منه الفلوس وبدون ماحد فيهم يعتذر وانا اتنرفزت وقلت مافيش نظام ابدا وبرضه لا حياة لمن تنادي. المهم جيت ادفع وطلعت 100 جنيه قالت لي مافيش فكة لازم تطلعي 50 وكوين جنيه قلت لها مش معايا ولا الخمسين ولا الكوين قامت قالت لي اتصرفي. مش فاهمة اتصرف ازاي يعني. قالت لي بمنتهى السطحية روحي فكي طبعا طلعت من شعوري ساعتها وانا اصلا مش طايقاها من موقف الدور اللي عدتهولي دة وكمان عايزاني امشي من الطابور واروح افك علشان ارجع اقف في الطابور من تاني. ابتديت اعلي صوتي وقلت مش مسؤوليتي اني اوفر فكة وان هما مجبرين يفكولي طبعا جا واحد زميلها ووقف معاها ضدي وقال ولا هي عليها تسيب مكتبها علشان تفك لكم. المهم وقفت في مكاني واتسمرت لاني ماكنتش عايزة دوري يروح عليا وانا واقفة ناس عرضت عليا جنيه لاني صعبت عليهم بس انا مارضيتش اولا لاني ماعرفهمش ولا هاقدر ارجع لهم فلوسهم ثانيا لان كبرت في دماغي وقفلت من الناس اللي عالشباك. المهم بعد لحظات من المهاترات والكلام الكثير افتكرت ان عندي في المحفظة جنيه ورق قديم رحت مطلعاه والراجل بكل غلاسة بدل ما ياخده ويسكت ويمشي الموضوع لا قالي ماهو الجنيه موجود اهو بس انتي اللي غاوية مشاكل قلت استفزه وقلت له اه كان موجود بس استخسرته فيك واخدت تذكرتي بعد ما كنت فغلا مفكرة اني اخد بعضي وامشي وبلاها سفر من اساسه. خلصت من التذكرة واتجهت للرصيف طبعت اتلخبطت لان مش مكتوب عالتذكرة رقم الرصيف بس سالت علي قطر اسكندرية شاورولي علي رصيف 5 ورحت طلع انه قطر مش مكيف قبل  اللي انا حجزاه. سالت عن القطر المكيف رقم 901 وواحد قالي دة علي رصيف 2 ووصلت له الحمد الله قبل طلوعه بربع ساعة ودخلت بس طبعا ولا فيه كمسري اساله عن العربية ولا رقمها ولا مكاني فين ولا اي حاجة. دخلت عالبركة وقعدت وولا في حد بيسال ان كنت قاعدة في مكاني اصلا. كل واحد بيخش يقعد زي ماهو عايز والاغرب ان اللي دافع درجة اولى زي اللي دافع درجة تانية عادي جدا. الاغرب بقة اني شفت ناس داخلة من غير تذكرة اصلا ومالقيوش مكان وفضلوا واقفين علي رجليهم لغاية لما بدا يتحرك القطر وظهر الكمسري يبص عالتذاكر. اخيرا لقيت الشخص اللي كان مفروض اشوفه عالقطر. شاف تذكرتي وتذاكر الناس اللي قاعدين كلهم وبعدين راح للناس اللي واقفة وخد منهم فلوس اكثر من تمن التذكرة اللي احنا دافعينها. مش مصدقة انهم يدفعوا اكثر مننا احنا اللي قاعدين وهما يفضلوا واقفين ساعتين ونص علي رجليهم.  ايه دة يا بلد. ايه النظام دة ولا ايه الفوضى دي. حاجة غريبة جدا. شوية ولقيت واحدة من اللي واقفين قعدت عالارض وراح قاعد جنبها اللي معاها. طب في الحالة دي ايه المفروض اللي يحصل؟ هل شاب كدة صغنن مفروض يقوم من مكانه ويعرض عليها تقعد ولا كله يكبر دماغه. طبعا كله كبر. هو فعلا غلطتها انها جاية مش حاجزة بس مافيش اخلاق زمان ولا انسانية زمان. واديني لسة في القطر باشوف حاجات غريبة عليا والله اعلم هاشوف ايه تاني.

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Great loss

I know that I’ve been away for so long now but to tell u the truth, I was so sad and mad about my greatest loss of all; my fluffy died. Didn’t know that this will happen soon, and didn’t know that I will be that sad although I love my cat sooooo much. But it was a shock like no other cause it was not expexted. I would expect any person to die but not my cat, not my son especially when I was away and not beside him during this awful experience. I don’t want to go into details now, maybe later but the worst thing is knowing that a dear family member is dying and you are too far to do anything except coming back as quickly as possible to find him already gone….

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Sorry for being away

Im sorry for being away for quite sometime but I was in shock after my Uncle passed away and i was busy with my cousins and father for a while. I even neglected my business for weeks as well as my kids. Now excuse me again as i will be busy with my kids for another two weeks for their exams (the governmental ones unfortunately). Then i will travel back to Kuwait. Next month inshallah i will be back and will tell u all details.

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AUC Farmers’ Market

Today i had the Worst experience ever. I was one of the first vendors to book a booth in this farmers market event and I was checking by email if anything needed before the event and their reply was “you are good” and nothing needed. Today I went to Gate 3 of the AUC and entered and they didnt have my name on their vendors list and asked me to wait. I waited and waited and then called Tina (one of the organizers) and she promised to call the security. I waited for another half an hour then called her again and she said im still calling security. I then emailed Zander (the main organizer) and got no reply. A guy showed up to apologize and said that its a matter of time and then they will eventually let me in. I waited another half an hour with no hope. Finally the security guy came close to my car and i thought he will tell me that i can pass and to my astonishment, he tells me I have to ask you to go out from the other gate and wait outside in the street. What???! That’s it. This is not professional at all and Not Acceptable. Then I called Tina and she said that there’s an issue and she’s at I dont know who’s office to solve it. I dont care. I got really upset and left and she texted me saying that they didnt approve my food items as they are homemade. I dont want to say a bad word here but Dont you know from the beginning that I am a home based business???

I left frustrated and was thinking of all this humiliation and of my food that will be thrown away. I put too much effort, work, money into it. I spent several days working, cooking, purchasing certain stuff for this event but in vain.

I got back home and wrote on their wall hoping they would reply back with an apology or anything to relieve my anger, but nothing. I received their appology at night after they finished their successful event and their reply was quite normal. The Organizers ofcourse blamed the university and i had no direct contact with anyone there so i will get nothing for what ive gone through today. Hopefuly they read this as i will rotate it everywhere and let everyone knows how the security guys in the AUC treat the vendors unpolitely and disrespectively. Please reblog this or share and help me spread the word.

#auc #newcairo #egypt #farmersmarket

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Baby Food Outside the Pouch

Source: Baby Food Outside the Pouch

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and another

So last week I participated in an event and i was a bit worried about it. Well it turned out very well and my products were sold out quickly. Good news is the owner asked me to be there every Saturday, so now i can say that i have my corner at Zamalek Market. Im so happy and looking forward to this new adventure. If u didnt get the chance to try my stuff last week, i hereby invite u this Saturday but come early before all the yummies go to other tummies.

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